They'll instinctively know that I yelled at Katie last night (OMG she was being a total pain and my patience ran out) and know that I am unfit to parent children....
That's how it felt today when three, very lovely, SWs came to do our review. It all went well (unless you count me making Pip, the child who rarely cries, cry twice just from picking him up - I think I caught him with my watch but was able to blame it on the fact that it was nearly 2pm and he needed his bottle!) Pip is doing well. He's settling in well. He's content and happy (as far as we can tell). He's not belly laughing yet but I think that will come. I can certainly elicit some serious, shoulder raising, giggles from him when I tickle his neck. He's not put on any weight, in fact he's trimming up nicely. I felt some muscles forming in his legs and his tummy is flattening down a bit. Everyone is happy with the boy.
The bigger question is how Katie is reacting. She's fine with Pip. Her nose is definitely a bit put out (as are the cats'). She's not being mean to him. She swings between giving him lots of attention and not wanting a bar of him. Most of the challenges we are experiencing are in Katie's behaviour with us. That's pretty much her default position though if anything changes. She's pretty bolshy and rude at the moment (hence me yelling at her when she refused to let me rinse her hair in the shower). She's lashed out at us a few times, and even smacked me round the face in temper the other night. She's pushing, but we expected this. I've told the SWs some of this but, to be honest, this is how Katie was before Pip and we're managing it so I don't feel it's newsworthy. Or am I just worried that they'll take Pip away? Not I don't think that but I do know that this all brings up those unresolved childhood/parental issues of not being good enough so instead I babble.
The SWs seemed very happy with how it's all going, as they should. It is going well. The Reviewing Officer made an interesting comment when telling me he'd never met a second time adopter before. I couldn't help myself, I commented that that was hardly surprising because the process is is awful (see what I mean about talking too much?)
I'm going to stop now before I start babbling again.....